Oh life… how you’re always changing!
This is just a personal reflection on what’s going on in my head:
Today I think things hit me for the first time. In just two weeks the semester will be over. In two weeks, I will no longer be seeing the same familiar faces that I have grown so accustomed to. Two weeks I am heading home, anticipating my wedding. In five weeks, I’ll be married!
Suddenly everything seems so real, and I’ll be honest, it’s a little overwhelming. I only have one semester left, and then there will be even more change!
I still wonder if everything will work out. I wonder if my path will ever cross again with those friends I’ve grown so close too over the past three years at Roberts. I wonder what married life will be like. I wonder where I’ll be working, and where my internship will be. I wonder if everything is going to fall in to place in time.
I turn to God.
Moments like these can be so overwhelming to me, and I’m not sure how to react or how to respond to so much emotion running through my veins, but one thing I am always sure of, is that God is always working it out.
I am going to miss my friends so dearly, and I mean the ones graduating and moving on. Does moving on mean forgetting old friends? I hope not… I will not. Oh how I hope that things are working out for them too. For I know they must be feeling the same way I am, or feeling something similar. Many things are changing this year. I’m not sure what to expect! My younger brother is graduating… we really are getting older. I am realizing how short life really is, and I just wish I could bring all those I love with me throughout my life, but I’m afraid we will be lead separate ways. I know I’ll stay in touch, but I’ll miss not being able to talk as much.
I’m caught up in emotions.
I am an adult now. I am the grown-up. Am I acting like one? Am I the adult I thought I would be? How I’ve changed so much in the past three years! Will I be ready to face the very adult things that are coming my way so quickly? Will I be the husband I planned on becoming? Will I always make good choices? What if I mess up big time? What if I hurt someone as an adult? Doesn’t that weigh more on a person than a child’s teasing?
Reality has come to me in this moment. I am now almost 21 years old, and I am not the same person I was when I turned 18. I’m faced with the reality that getting older doesn’t make you an adult, mature, or smart. I am still learning. I am still experiencing new things. I don’t have the answers to everything. Here I am again-wondering about so many things.
I will trust God. I will do my best. I will not forget. I will keep in touch. I will take change head on. I will love my wife forever. I will always try to keep God first. I will move on. I will grow older. I will learn. I will fight. I will accept change with a positive attitude. I will try to be the best Joe Herne I can be.
Things in my life are going to be changing really fast, really soon. Two weeks… two weeks left. I will miss my graduating friends so dearly. There will always be a place for them in my heart. I plan to keep them for life. They mean so much to me.
My wedding day is going to be so significant. It might be the last time that I see some of those friends, and at the same time, it marks a new beginning for the rest of my life with Amanda. So much has happened in the past three years, and there is still so many years for life ahead.
What will life throw my way in later years? I’m sure I’ll feel the same way-full of wonder.
The fact that you have these fears means that you will work hard to fulfill your dreams. You won’t lose touch with your friends! You have Facebook!
Look how old we are, and most of our *best* friends are our lifelong college friends. We don’t live close to most of them, but we communicate and visit once in a while. Some of them are even on Facebook!
I doubt that, in a few years, you will still have the same feeling of wonder. You will be too busy with life, keeping your head above water, and thrilled with your family and that you love what you do. It will be a new level; one to surpass the current one!
All the best in the excitement of the coming month. We are all rooting for you!
I’m so glad I was able to get to know you and Amanda this year. I’m also glad you’ll be in the area after graduating. We’ll have to hang out the four of us in the fall…bowling, Tully’s, Applebees, whatever..and Joy ’cause she’ll be in the area! The good friends from college keep in touch…and God has a way of bringing new people in our lives. I can understand your post and being sad that it’s all ending so soon. I remember feeling that way…my RWC college days were great and I didn’t want them to end. Praying for you as you finish up!
Rachel Spink
Oh Joe,
Things were so crazy this year weren’t they? Just looking back all I can think is OMG HMLLLL SHEEP. haha. But we deff made it through it. I love this…it reminds me of why I started blogging in the first place: to find someone going through the same things as me. *sigh* I’m not sure what the future holds for either of us…but I’m sure that there will be many, many more sheep attacks and fun times to come. All I can say is this: don’t sweat the small things. Life has a strange way of working itself out, you know. And if anything, you have so many people here to pick you up if you ever fail: Amanda, your family, me and all the people you’ve connected with at school.
Anyway, see you soon twin!