No one said life would be easy…
The past three months have been really shaky. Losing one of my best friends, finding out my brother and sister-in-law had a miscarriage, and not being able to find a job. However, there have been some good things. Marriage has been a blessing. I still have so much to be thankful for.
It’s hard to stay positive, always seeing the glass half-full. Sometimes it’s a lot easier to see the glass as fallen off the counter and shattered on the floor and the liquids staining the carpet! Image that for a minute. I want so many things, and those strong wants become unhealthy sometimes, and they turn to jealously and covetousness. (Two qualities I never want to have.)
Today, I was hit with a lot of things. I am still grieving for my best friend, and always will. I have cried more in the past three months than I have the past three years, and just when I think everything is okay again, more news reaches my ears and goes straight to my tear ducts releasing pain that can only be expressed in such a way as crying.
No one said life would be easy…
In the midst of my emotions running wild and my attempt to try and explain them to my wife, I received a blessing. It was a blessing that I was not “wanting” like other things consuming my mind such as a new car, a job, financial security… but it was the blessing I needed. My wife spoke words of pure love that could only come from God. She made me feel special, and reminded me of what is most important, and picked me up.
It is moments like these that make me realize again why God gave me Amanda.
She shared with me a song that hit right at home. It is by JJ Heller. I strongly encourage you to listen to it. The lyrics are in the video.
Encouraged, path re-straightened, and chin-up. Later on this evening, I was encouraged by the lyrics of another two songs. First one. I still have strong wants, and this song below helped me changed that perspective.
You can’t always get what you want, but if you try sometimes you get what you need. I want a job. I want Sheldon back in my life. I want Jen and Nate to have their baby back. I want a car. I want to be the bread-winner. BUT what I needed is to be loved. Amanda showed me that, and the lyrics to the song above was exactly what I needed to hear.
So in conclusion to my “No one said life would be easy…” post… When life hits you hard, and you want to go File -> Quit, don’t lose hope. Remember to love, and be thankful for the love around you. When you need hope, seek out love. Most of all, do not forget God’s love for each and every one of us. 1 John 4:10 states, “This is love: not that we loved God, but that he loved us and sent his Son as an atoning sacrifice for our sins.”
ALL YOU NEED IS LOVE!!!
